They say that it is normal to experience periodic bouts of homesickness while studying abroad. Lately I have been going through one. Maybe it was the start of classes, the change in my schedule, I'm not sure. But for whatever reason, the homesickness hit me hard Tuesday evening as I was walking down to the university. I haven't been able to shake it yet. It's becoming increasingly frustrating for me, because I feel like I haven't learned very much – and I've been here almost a month now. My understanding of German has grown, but I still have no confidence in being able to communicate in German. And with this homesickness, it just makes me want to go home even more, where I know I can communicate with other people without problems. I want to be somewhere that I can speak English, and not feel guilty about it. I wish that I could figure out how to get over whatever it is that's holding me back. I can't spend four months in a foreign country and not learn the language, especially when that is what I'm going to school for. Maybe I'm worrying when I shouldn't be, because I have a little less than three more months ahead of me still, and I've only started my classes. But this homesickness is accompanied by feeling disheartened as well.
So please, if you will, send me some love. And crunchy peanut butter... I'm almost out.
Alles Liebe,
Amanda
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If it makes you feel any better, I'm just as full of Amandasickness as you are of homesickness I bet.
I'll bet you that you have improved in your German a whole lot more than you think you have, Amanda. You know, sort of like if you see someone everyday and they slowly grow taller you don't even notice it, but if you saw someone whom you hadn't seen in a while, you would definitely notice a height difference. (Kyle had growth spurts like that.)
When your Mom and your brother each visit you, I bet they are going to be blown away at how proficient you are, not only in the language, but all of your other knowledge, like how to catch a bus or where to go for pastries, or a fun pub...you'll be like a professional tour guide!
Tomorrow afternoon, turn your face to the sun, and know that I am also facing the sun and dedicating a yoga Sun Salutation to you (no big deal - it only takes about 5 minutes) and sending my love.
Love again from Chris
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